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vitospaghetta · 28 days ago

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This may come off as a bit mean but I think it says so much about the current state of fandom, at least in the RE/Leon community, that I see so many really thoughtful, well-written meta posts get next to no notes, but then literally any low effort post about Leon's dick and where he's sticking it gets 100+ notes without fail. It's like.. extremely clear how a lot of folks really don't care much about the franchise outside of the sexualization of a single character.

#i've seen so many really insightful posts flop #meanwhile a post that's just like #someone else's gif with 'mmmmm leon's dilf cock.. u know he fucks hard 😩' does absolute numbers #shit sucks here so bad oh my god #idk man it's just really disheartening to see people thoughtfully dissecting the characters and themes and dynamics #and that not being worth anyone's time i guess

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palamidezh · 3 months ago

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how it started

(all from august-september 2021)

vs how it's going

(from earlier today/two days ago)

#the glow up is UNREAL . ik those aren't even my only foxboy gawaines they're just from the only era when i posted that shit #like ik one of the first ever pieces of med lit fanart i did was foxboy gawaine way back in 2020 and i have another big one i did #this time last year for ap art . and i probably have several dozen others scattered through the years i never posted and thus couldn't find #n e ways. god the glowup is unreal . i need to do more serious arthurian/rtm art so i can do more comparisons like this .#i thought i ate so bad w that lineless one but ough . my strength always was and still is traditional sketching and it showed .#like i'm just now catching up digitally. it's inch resting to look at the ways my style has changed over time here. obv i took away #gawaine's fuck ass bob and gave him a cuntier (but still kinda fuck ass) haircut . i still draw fox ears p much the same. noses and lips to #and as for eyes i actually went back to my style roots Before i started doing it the way i did in the 2021 ver .#oh and the hair follows the same idea but w diff execution and the cheekbones are exagerated but now it's on purpose . back then was just b #i sucked at art lol #arthuriana #arthurian legend #gawaine

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alagaisia · 4 months ago

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Hey if you’re still enjoying and engaging with Harry Potter in any capacity you can unfollow me 😊 please and thank you

Like. I get it. I was super into it as a kid too. I did not have the social context to pick up on the antisemitism or transphobia or sexism or fatphobia or bioessentialism or racism or anything else. I also picked up on surface-level language of Fighting Back Against Evil and ascribed my own values onto what that meant and thought we were all on the same page. I remember when the original kids who grew up with the books started becoming adult fans and picking up on the (blatant!) antisemitism and everybody was still mostly willing to give JKR the benefit of the doubt on it. (“She was writing kids books!” They said. “She didn’t know she was penning a global phenomenon! She picked a common literary trend in European fairy tales (antisemitic caricature) and didn’t examine it closely. It’s a mistake anyone could make,” we said. “She would probably do things differently now. After all, she word-of-god confirmed the vaguest hints she dropped that Dumbledore might be gay,” we said.) There was actually a span of several years where biases inherent in the actual real content of the Harry Potter series were coming to light and even the people pointing them out still seemed mostly to think it was an unfortunate accident.

That time has passed. Years ago! We are long past the first months of “maybe she doesn’t realize this seemingly-feminist tweet she liked was made by a noted TERF” and then “how could she not realize that these many veiled TERF-y things she’s retweeted have implications for the many queer fans of her work” and finally “oh wow okay JKR just dropped an entire transphobic manifesto on twitter. I guess the transphobia was the point.”

Yeah, there were a few months after that where people were still processing and still working through how they felt about Harry Potter and all of its flaws with the context of the now open transphobia of the creator. I was there for that. Remember how I was one of the kids who built it up into something noble and worthwhile based on my own beliefs about what messages it was probably trying to convey? Turns out it wasn’t trying to say any of those things, and when you take the time to examine all of the terrible shit that made its way into the text whether JKR intended it to be there or not, the whole series falls apart. It’s weird to discover that there’s a room in your house that’s rotten to the core, but eventually you figure out you can’t live like that, still going in there and holding your nose and pretending it’s still the same room you thought it was when the termites were only inside of the walls and hadn’t yet started chewing their way through the furniture. Because what’s going to happen is that they are going to infest the rest of your house. If you decide you can ignore transphobia and antisemitism and everything else just because you liked the color of the wallpaper, the rest of your principles are going to crumble too. You get rid of that fucking room. You put those books on a high shelf in the back of your closet behind other outgrown clothes and interests and you move the fuck on.

JKR uses the money made from her transphobic antisemitic children’s books to actively funding hate groups and to lobby for legislation that will and has actually affected the actual lives of trans people in an entire country. We are past the point of grieving something you were wrong about in childhood. Kids are wrong about a lot of stuff. You grow up and you learn new information and you change your behaviors based on it. You have to choose. It is transphobic to pretend there is not transphobia where there is. It is transphobic to support the work of someone who is using those funds to take rights from trans people with every fucking dollar. It is hateful to continue to engage positively with a story that at its very core is rooted in hate and bigotry and prejudice. You can choose to do all of those things but you cannot claim ignorance of them and you cannot choose those things and still pretend that choosing them upholds the values we convinced ourselves that Harry Potter stood for over a decade ago as uninformed children. You cannot choose to do those things and pretend to still support your trans and queer and Jewish neighbors. I do not want you in my neighborhood. Leave.

#mine #Harry potter cw #yeah I don’t want to see or think about this shit either and I’m sure most of my followers are on the same page of just like. let’s wipe it #from the public consciousness and do our best to just completely ignore it and forget it existed and in doing so take away JKRs platform and #influence and also stop the continued harm the series will do by propagated hateful biases in people who continue to read it #but despite heavily culling my feed over the course of the past several years and thankfully mostly not seeing HP fandom things anymore #I’ve been seeing a lot of responses today to people defending it and honestly I forget that there are still people out there doing that who #think they are just fine and normal fandom people with non-hateful and terrible interests and it makes me so angry #maybe more so because like. I was there too! I was annoyingly obsessed with Harry Potter from the ages of idk seven? up until whenever JKR #started being openly transphobic. I have so much fucking knowledge about this book series that will never leave my brain. and yeah it was #weird and hard to have to rethink things and realize that no actually it does feel bad and uncomfortable to continue to be a fan even #passively of these books. it was a big part of my childhood and several of my friendships. I fully get it. I was the weird kid also.#it was weird and hard to say oh actually this sucks and I don’t want to be a part of it anymore. but I did it! I got there! because it was #more important to care about real actual things and people than it is to fondly remember a book series for children.#and at the time it felt like maybe I did hang on a little longer than I could have and was a little later than some people and figuring out #my feelings and moving on from the whole thing. but it was still fucking years ago. and you’re still here?#because you like the color of the wallpaper in this shitty rotten broken down tacked on room? because we used to spend time there together?#buddy the room was giving us lead poisoning the whole time and the rest of us have accepted that and we are all outside doing other things.#you will find connection and community in so many places in your life. I promise. get the fuck out of that terrible awful room #and for gods sake stop bring out handfuls of mold you found under the floorboards and shoving it in our faces #nobody fucking wants this. we did it. we’re done.#so yeah I think I have an extra level of disdain because I know from personal experience that it’s not *that* fucking hard to care more #about real life trans people than about antisemitic children’s books.

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the-acid-pear · 9 months ago

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I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 🧸 like its just Peak evil imo.

#luly talks #i do relinquish in the pain and the agony but dont get me wrong the thought of any of them 3 getting jailed makes me SO sad #rog esp since he's the one im writing about and the biggest nerve wreck #gingi voice they'll be the last one to pick the board game for prison-game-night..........#actually yknow i wonder if rog would end up almost believing it after all when you try to gaslight him for the shits and giggles #(as in: telling HE was victim of the bite of 87 and the like) he tells you to not do that bc his brain is already scrambled or something #so there's a chance perhaps he'd believe it if he had everyone constantly accussing him of it?#not like it'd matter much i have no hopes for the dsaf justice system i know its been 35 years since jack got framed but still #i just remembered when the option popped up i said ''god im really becoming steven 😭''#first time i made the joke too was when i said ''imagine your boss sucks so bad you turn suicidal'' no clue what the context was #OH YEAH JAKE SAYING HE'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN KEEP WORKING HERE yeah. poor guy.#anyway im derailing my own post again uhhh. yeah. yeah i dont trust any phoney is avoiding the death sentence #dsaf #roger jones #dsaf roger #btw just for the sake of yapping longer i truly cant decide whether harry or jake would survive better in the enviroment #probably jake to be honest. I mean Harry has a lot of experience inside freddy's but he didnt really live outside it muhc #jake is so confrontational though #hey did you guys watch the hit movie felon? sure that guy wasn't framed but. i feel like jake would end up w that attitude #except for. you know. everything else that happens in the hit movie felon.#hey actually forget about this game go watch the 10/10 movie Felon from 2008 starring Val Kilmer and Stephen Dorff #because its one of my all time fave movies and probably the saddest i've seen #not bc there arent movies that are more tragic but bc no movie was able to break thru my walls of idgaf and make me cry anyway #yeah you thought i couldnt bring up my movie fixations on my different fandom posts well you were WRONG in fact #im gonna go tag my other post i left untagged yesterday bc my ass was Cooking

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 6 months ago

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people begging me to do something to make a certain someone happy aren’t taking into account that i hate this person and i will revel in the knowledge that i kept them from getting the most perfect version of what they wanted. in fact i hope they mourn the loss of this for the rest of their life and die unhappy about it

#i wish i could do worse. i wish i could go through and ruin everything i ended up giving them (all against my wishes) and i wish #i could ruin everything they love because god do i hate them and i will laugh when they finally fucking die #i have no idea why everyone glosses over all the shit this person has done to us and all the pain they’ve caused and i can’t fathom why #everyone wants to make them happy and why they’re willing to beg and bribe for me (and one other person who also hates them) to #give in but it is amusing and i hope they all fucking cry about it like oh nooo did poor [REDACTED] not get something they will never #get another chance to have ? oh well that sucks so bad for them i’m oh so sorry i caused that i can’t believe i managed to ruin their #chances for this how awful that this person i hate who has done and gotten away with so many horrible things didn’t get their perfect #little fantasy how sad we should all comfort them and call me a bitch who has no respect for anyone #god sometimes i wish i gave into violence more in the past bc i wish i got to fucking beat their ass up back when it would be self-defense #unforch i will never get to now. SAD!#i suppose i have murder fantasies and the thought of being able to ruin their funeral to soothe my soul #and the knowledge that i could make them fucking hurt by refusing to cooperate w them #and ough every time an opportunity presents itself for me to fucking take back what they took from me arises i have to fight myself #on it bc everyone will know it was me. i don’t even want what they have i just want them to know they will never get it back and #god it would upset them so much but they never should have had it in the first place ough if i get the chance before i ditch everyone here #for good i’d want to take it and stick around just long enough to hear how much they’ll cry about it before i fuck off #unforch i would need to know where all of their copies of things are but fuck i hate knowing they’ve taken so much from me bc i didn’t #get a fucking choice and they think they have to right to keep it all bc oh it makes them so happy they love having it they’re so fucking #afraid of losing it but it’d be so easy and i doubt they’d even notice for a while and i genuinely could disguise it as a mistake something #got misplaced some files corrupted etc etc but whatever this is fantasy a sweet little daydream of mine my second fantasy involving #them has smth to do with setting their house on fire and my third fantasy is desecrating their grave when the time comes #okay i’m done w this lalalalalala *skips off into the distance* i think revenge is not productive but god is it delicious to think about

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exopelagic · 6 months ago

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this election feels so hollow even though it’s likely ostensibly gonna be a good outcome. labour really just sucks fucking ass rn huh

#if the tories lose bad enough to make lib dems the opposition though… a guy can hope #I think it’s the fact that this is the first general election I can vote in that’s making me lose my mind a little here #I have done basically nothing but read today. I DO know a whole bunch more abt voting systems and the nightmare the tories have been now tho #I’m just kinda like. okay so what happens next? bc labour WILL do some decent shit but they also. fucking suck.#planning to look into the local green party once I’m back at uni bc I could actually do stuff there #I think I’m just dealing with a little bit of whiplash going from doing a biology degree where Everything is about climate change #like unambiguously it gets brought up in every topic (I DO focus on ecology and agricultural stuff and not like genetics but still)#clear consensus from literally everyone you talk to that shit has to happen right the fuck now.#it’s not even like I’m unaware of the state of policy rn I KNOW it’s a nightmare to do anything but we at least TALK about it #and then this election where it’s barely a footnote. biggest thing is the sewage dumping everyone’s talking about and yeah fucking finally #but is that all you’ve got?? the labour manifesto is bleak. it has a section and the stuff they’re proposing isn’t bad but it’s so little #and yeah no they’ve changed the official line on the manifesto to ‘make Britain a clean energy superpower’#I SWEAR it was different a few days ago #maybe I’m being pessimistic bc their plans for clean energy if they actually do them could be huge especially if they manage it by 2030.#it’s just that I know what the targets are and they’re already pulling back on shit like EVs bc of the shift right and I am So Tired #two party politics is a curse. as much as reform is an actual nightmare them getting a decent vote share might actually be the thing that #gets people talking abt proportional representation again bc they are nothing if not good at being loud #did you know we had a fucking referendum in 2011 bc what the fuck. and it went SO BADLY even though people generally supported it #god idk I think I’m once again being naively optimistic about people and election coverage has been very good at knocking me down a bit #people generally are good. I have to believe this. but man the british public is making that really fucking hard #genuinely I think a good chunk of that is down to first past the post driving politics to be divisive and aggressive #like is it the only problem? fuck no. but it’s definitely poisoning the way this shit goes bc when all the parties do is jab at each other #what are we actually doing here #idk I’m gonna stop now but this is taking up a ridiculous amount of bandwidth rn I can’t wait for it to be over #already dreading what the next election could look like in 4 years if starmer continues to suck ass bc I don’t trust him to not like at all #luke.txt #I said i was done but I just looked at the lib dem manifesto and oh my god it’s actually pretty good on this? holy fucking shit

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muzzlemouths · 2 years ago

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Psst. Just wanted to let you know that you're cool and I hope you have a really nice day today! You seem to be Goin Through It™ and I just wanted to let you know that we (your followers) like you no matter the quantity of stuff you're able to make at any given time (though we most certainly do like what you make, but that's not why most of us stay, I believe); you're very funny and have insightful opinions about writing, and you're always super nice when I stop by to say hi! Please remember to be kind to your mind and heart this upcoming Spring. I hope The Delights come into your life in leaps and bounds, and that you'll receive good news soon!!! <33

ooh...ohh.h.....th.ank you for the kind words........

#ohhhh i fought long and hard to not just. keep this in my inbox so i could stare at it for days #when i first read this my initial reaction was ''oh god is it that obvious''#''am i like crashing and burning in real time on this blog. live on tv''#which..FAIR YEAH LMAO #to be 100% transparent here i actually haven't been on this blog all day BECAUSE i was having a day where I was just like.#ahaha my shit Sucks and everybody's just humoring me #comparison kills and i have been stabbing myself like its the ides of march lately #and the fact that i haven't put anything new out is half because of that i'm sure #like the mindset of ''if i post nothing at all then i can't compare it to [insert other authors here]''#WHICH IS SOOOO STUPID I KNOW I KNOW #self sabotage is my middle name its a bad habit i'm fighting daily but it's HARD #this has just turned into a Whining Session oh no #there's a reason i moved all of this to tags lmao #ANYWAY ANYWAY. GENUINELY I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU #from the bottom of my heart asks like these keep me from going over the deep end #it amazes me each and every day that so many of you choose not only to follow me but to STAY despite my general shenanigans and thinly veil #like i'll have days (like today) where i'm on the floor kicking and screaming over NOTHING and y'all just sit back and wait for me to get m #and it makes me so genuinely soft. the patience and kindness you show me #i will try my HARDEST to be kind to my mind and heart i promise. I promise.#if not for myself than for everyone out there continuously showing their support for me despite The Horrors #and I hope you're right i hope The Delights are somewhere in view soon enough #lord knows we could all use 'em #thank you again #❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️#edit: oh tumblr cut off like half of these paragraphs #thats probably for the best. you can just guess what i said LMAO

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chytilovian-daisy · 2 years ago

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it is very strange to hear the education of someone who was brought up in fundamentalist circles and its like... actually this is the same stuff we’re told in american public school education

#brie rambles #the centering of the united states and unnamed people w.out saying hey the founding fathers suck and so does this country #like. we got. the bare minimum of certain other countries histories... like... medieval and rennaisance england. but like. barely.#and a quick sweep over ancient greece and rome.#but other than that it was. a slow rehashing of the same points in the united states but none actually hitting on the truth of the matter #like. even we got the very lightest hint in africa but it was the extent of watching hotel rwanda and mentioning blood diamonds #but still not. touching on how god awful the united states is and its complicity in so many war crimes #i could go on and on but the tldr is im just. my god i hate the school system here so much #history in this country is especially bad like my god.#and ppl wanna center it like. oh no its just the south w this education #i was literally in one of the most so-called progressive states education is just shit all over this country

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ceolocunt · 7 hours ago

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#one more week till I get home im so excited to get high again oh my god #this has genuinely been such a shitty start to the year #probably some sort of depressive episode idk. I had a headache for like 3 days nonstop and now its back #all I really havbe had the energy for has been sitting on the couch and being on my computer and my mom keeps being like #its always that damn phone etc etc you need to exercise etc etc and yes but consider: I want to die so bad #tubbo (headmate) has been basically trying to kill himself since like april last year #we struck a deal where whenever he wanted to do that he would instead drink. lesser of 2 evils. but now we cant do that around our parents #ive been having nightmares and shitty sleep and anxiety about my exes and im depressed and im just sitting here like #Im not. addicted to substances. but if existence without them feels this shit then why amI even alive #mfw im tearing up anc crying at 3 in the afternoon #ive been suck a dick to everyone too it feels like. im so tired and hopeless. I just want it all to end #back to my mom telling me to exercise it also feels like she just doesnt. gaf. about my visibly unhealthy habits she just criticizes #I eat one meal a day? thats fine who gaf. I lay down for a few minutes or tell her I slept 3 hours? oh its cuz im a lazy fuck who needs-#to go outside #whatever. save me israel kamakawiwo'ole

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potentiallyangstyrandomthoughts · 17 days ago

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I know my dads fucking great and all cause he raised me and my sister by himself for over a decade cause mom was a crack head and left, but now that we all are moving out on our own soon he's just like really selfish and clingy. My sisters noticed it too and i get that he's lonely but like I'm not going to fucking baby him forever and be his only fucking source of companionship he needs to find someone else to bother. Like I'm trying so hard to not fucking snap at him I just want him to leave me alone and I know I'm supposed to care and be happy and be nice cause we are all about to live alone most likely in different fucking states so we wont see each other again aside from holidays. But like the time we are supposed to be enjoying he's just weird. He's weird and, as my sister would say " It's triggering me". Like it just fucking sets me off. He's different IDK. I know he's high ever since weed got legalized he's been smoking all the time and I fucking hate him when he's high he's pathetic and annoying as shit. And like yea that's a really fucking mean thing to say but I AM HIS MAIN FUCKING SOCIAL SUPPORT. He comes to me with EVERYTHING. He always sounds so fucking miserable and its only ME that he vents too like that he doesn't vent like that to my sister. And if I say I don't want to he gets fucking pouty? like a fucking child? So I shut down and stare at the wall and let him say whatever nothing it is that he's saying then I leave early cause I'm holding back fucking screaming at him like I don't care shut the fuck up . I can BARELY GET OUT OF FUCKING BED MOST DAYS. FUCK YOU. LEAVE ME ALONE IM DYING I CANT HOLD YOUR BAGGAGE TOO. YOU WANT ME TO BE HAPPY THEN STOP USING ME AS YOUR FUCKING LIFE PRESERVER IM DROWNING.

FUCK OFF.

#The more i remeber my dad did everything “ For his kids” The more i realize it was for “ HIS” kids. ya know?#I wonder if he just liked the idea of kids #i dont want to live here anymore it sucks #He just feels so selfish these days. He only talks about himself and theres no room to say anything #Leggit i can stand there and look like im about to shoot myself in the head #and he just doesn't stop talking #but he NOTICES.#he KNOWS i dont care he FUCKING SEES IT #I hate that even more #like he doesn't value what I want to do with my time at all #I've heard the same shit for 5 fucking years he just repeats himself im fucking tired of it #I was always pretending to listen cause i didn't really care all that much but not its getting to the point im just so fucking angry man.#He took off an extra day each week to “Help me with moving”#He gets high all day and does nothing and when i go to him hes like “ oh yea i forgot” or “ oh i did things for me today”#Don't fucking act like your taking off for me if it's just an extra day for you cause your tired #If your tired thats fucking fine but how fucking DARE you use me as the reason why your taking off.#Your just getting high you fucking addict #and i leggit spend all monday WAITING for his ass cause im like " well he said im basicly owned by him for this whole fucking day so i have #“To literally be at his beckon call all day otherwise he will be like ” but I said Mondays are for uss :////“ Fuck you fuck you fuck you fu #Now i only have one day where i get time alone and im so fucking angry i NEED time alone like i loose my MIND if i dont #Im going to fucking kill someone i stg #“Mondays are for us” Yea bitch and where on the contract did i sign? Like i had no say in this I NEVER do i just sit there and take it #you would never really listen anyway #god this is where i got it from #i got it from him #and mother #Am i evil?#having a really fucking bad day i guess man like shit #im gona play videogames about it felt nice to vent tho omg

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turnip-o-lantern · 3 months ago

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No spoilers dont worry

I havent entirely finished shadows campaign in sonic x shadow generations but oh my fucking god

We are so FUCKING BAAAAACK

Once i get back from my errands imma finish this game and imma cry tears of joy (again)

#the controls are GODLY sonic frontier has NOTHING on this bad boy #ian flynn imma kiss you silly and stupupid you are an actual angel sent from heaven #OH MY GOD MY BEAUTIFUL BABYGIRL KINGDOM VALLEY I MISSED YOUUUUU #the way shadow sits down on his silly little chair or his motorbike in the trophy room OH MEIN GOTTTTT #the way i SCREAMED when rouge appeared #while were on the topic that fucking cutscene with city escape???? hello???? that was the coolest shit ever #this game is so fucking cool i feel like a little kid again #the orchestral version of all hail shadow playing in the overworld OOOOUUURGHHHHNNN #i drove home from work (which i left early i specifically did overtime for shadow the hedgehog) like a madman sonic playlist on max #screeming every lyric and giggling like a little girl which i am btw #this game deaged me by like 14 years or so #this is everything to me #i will actually 100% the show campaign just watch me #jk i suck at sonic games this mf wont get every s rank even if she sold her soul to black doom himself #i will try though or so help me god #also i play on switch but the game still looks soo good with sonic frontiers you really noticed the lower graphics but here? not that much #the cutscenes look pretty too #i am SO glad i preordered this game and i would have finished it yesterday if sitting too long wouldnt assassinate all the joints in my body

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the-ocean-is-trans · 6 months ago

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addison hatta is such a lonely character. so loyal that his devotion turns him evil and ostracizes him from everyone he loves. not mind-controlled to do evil things, like humphrey or chess, just straight up gone dark side because of his unswerving loyalty to his queen, of not wanting her to go through her pain alone, even though it cost him everyone he cares about. then exile, where he sits guarding the gateway to a homeland he can never return to, but also can never venture too far from or else it will literally kill him. just a sad twilight existence. he doesn't get to fully start over new; he still has to work with the people he betrayed, some of whom hate him, some of whom still care about him but are forced to do it at a distance. he finally finds alice, but lies to her about his past and wonderland, even when she needs that information to do her job, because he would do anything to block out his wrongdoing, even if it means costing him the only companionship he's had in years. he's passively suicidal, jumping into every mission not caring if he lives or dies. he self-medicates with alcohol. his ex who was the greatest love of his life before alice simultaneously doesn't remember him and can't stand him, and addison kisses him anyway, then says they can never be together. the narrative paints him as this kind of brooding, snarky hottie but never really focuses the lens over the totality of his life which is kind of fucking miserable.